Since today is groundhog day I think it only apropos that I confess about winter. Every year when it rears its head I feel the need to hibernate. To crawl into bed and stay there until spring. To metaphorically plug up my but like a bear and not climb out of my cave. But in all seriousness I have a harder time being productive, or at least I think I do. I start to feel guilty the moment the cold weather sets in because I feel like I “should” be doing things differently. But this winter I’m doing things a bit differently… I’m allowing myself to be exactly as I am. Leaving myself alone. Allowing the slowness. the needing more sleep and wanting to keep warm.
I’m from a family of “workers” if we are not busy we are not being productive and when I am not… I feel guilty. So I have asked myself what would happen if I left myself alone? Allowed myself the comfort of the warmth. Although in my mind I thing that the world would fall apart but in reality I still get up meditate, exercise and get to work. So what’s the worst thing that could happen? ….Nothing that make my world fall apart . How much more productive would I be by allowing myself a little extra sleep, a nap or a day here and there where I stick to my heating pad? Well for myself I’m more productive with the time I have since I am releasing the guilt. Why waste my time with that catabolic thought process which immediately takes me out of the moment and into feelings which don’t support me. Somehow I seem to be enjoying the winter a bit more. I will admit I enjoy it so much more since I work from home and I don’t have to drive anywhere. What a spectacular thing! So this winter I am learning to rephrase the way I look at it.
So I guess, how gentle are you with the things that you think you “should” do? How do you keep from piling a lot of “should” on yourself? How do you handle to winter?
Energetically, albeit with a heating pad
~Sarah
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