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Reminder that I am human… October 30, 2012

I’m sure everyone is thinking that I’m going to bog about hurricane Sandy that hit the eastern seaboard the past couple of days or maybe even this contentious election campaign that’s going on right now… but no.  To start here’s a little back story about me.  As some of you may or may not know I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis over 11 years ago and to this date I have done very well with no true “Relapses” in all that time. It even stayed away from the stress and side effects when I went through months of cancer treatment.   Yeah I know I was spanked hard in a short period of time…..

That said I have had during this past month my very first relapse since I was diagnosed (I think).  I truly count myself very lucky… With all my meditating and lecturing on  living in the moment I believe I was as prepared as I would ever have been.  There’s more…I also live with migraine.  (I don’t say suffering because as we all know pain is inevitable but suffering is optional.)  My neurologists don’t think that there’s a connection but they can’t say that they’re not connected to my MS.  I have changed my diet, meditate, receive regular acupuncture, swim (due to back surgery 2 years ago), I’ve tried reiki, not taken meds and taken meds.  All this to say that if there is a healthy possibility that it might alleviate my pain, I’ve tried it or do it.  I finally gave in to Botox treatments after regularly living with about 20 migraines a month. (this is the condensed version :-))

Now put that on top of an MS relapse that takes its form of severe vertigo and nausea with excessive Restless Leg Syndrome.  My world has been tossed sideways. I haven’t blogged in a while due to these given circumstances.  I am reminded to be gentle, to keep moving forward. To say no to certain things And to say yes to others.

But now I have to admit that for the first time in my life when I haven’t felt well it was not just me.  There is someone else who is concerned for me.  I have actually felt that “what if…” What if he sees me sick and can’t handle me this way and leaves.  As untrue as I know that to be I still got a little scared.  I have learned to function very well with pain.  I continue to go about my day even though my world is in constant motion.  I am regularly, regularly reminded that so much about life is trusting in oneself. Loving oneself.  I do not live my life as a victim… you know what I mean… the “Why me?!” syndrome.  Or using my wound as the way I am defined…. I call that wound-ology.  My regular response to that is why not me on all fronts.  Why not have great things happen too! With everything it’s a question of choice and how you want to handle it.  There’s that topic again, choice.  I chose to trust and love myself an in turn I chose to trust and love another.  And trust that it will all work itself out in the end. Or right now if it so choses…

 

I know that there are only great things out there for me and everyone else too! So now that the hurricane has moved on… Let’s get back to our regularly scheduled life.

 

Lots of Love!!!

~Sarah

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His Holiness the Dalai Lama’s visit to Danbury Connecticut October 20, 2012

This thursday and Friday His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama spoke at Westerner Connecticut State University in Danbury CT in conjunction with the Tibetan Center in Redding Ct, Do Ngak Kunphen Ling or DNKL. It was a remarkable couple of days.  I had received my tickets and was raring to go but then I came down with the creeping crud and felt that it wouldn’t be fair of me to go and sneeze and cough over everyone.  So I was given the opportunity to give my tickets to my boyfriends parents! Lucky for me pictures were sent all along the way.

Although disappointed that I couldn’t attend I was pleased to be able to share this with people who haven’t had the opportunity to experience the His Holiness speak before.  So Of Course I was glued to my laptop with tissues and water in hand to view the live stream.  It’s supposed to be up on youtube and when I can find it 🙂 I will have it for you.  But here is a wonderful article with his complete lecture on thursday about compassion.  Here is an excerpt from the article:

 

“My fundamental belief is that we are all the same as human beings. We don’t need an introduction when we meet because we are mentally, physically, emotionally the same. I find this is a very helpful way of thinking. Whether I’m speaking to 1000 people or 100,000, there are no barriers between us.”

His Holiness explained that when there are no barriers there’s room for trust. Trust is the basis of friendship. On a global level the time has come to develop a strong sense of the oneness of humanity. Then there will be no room for exploitation, cheating or bullying. If others are successful, be happy. Otherwise, if we a jealous, that leads to mistrust, which leads to fear and suspicion and ultimately loneliness.

His Holiness the Dalai Lama speaking at Western Connecticut State University’s O’Neill Center in Danbury, CT, on October 18, 2012. Photo/WCSU

Everyone wants to lead a peaceful life, but a peaceful society does not evolve only from economic development, it comes about as a result of inner peace in the hearts of individuals. How can we develop such inner peace? Through prayer? His Holiness said that of course prayer has its place, but he feels a need to take action instead.”

 

As soon as I can find the 2 lectures I will post them! It was a remarkable couple of days!

 

 

Being Alone… October 7, 2012

In the past few weeks the topic of being “alone” has been a big one!  There is a difference from being alone vs. lonely.  We all have moments through out our lives when we feel lonely but alone is very different matter. I’ve been known to say, “You can’t find the love of your life until you become the love of your life.” If we feel alone and do everything we can to avoid our own company we won’t be very good company for someone else.  And in turn if you are entering a relationship so that you don’t have to be alone then you are not at your optimal….  Which is 2 people coming together at their greatest so that they can grow together.  Because of this I am re-posting a blog post from 2010.

Here is a video that has recently gone viral on Facebook. I immediately feel in love with it!!!!! When I started to listen to it I recognized the voice as Tanya Davis’ who also created another über favorite of mine “ART”….. Take a look-see.

 

 

Lots of Love!

~S

 

I Want it NOW Daddy! October 1, 2012

 

This post created some great discussion so I thought I’d post it again… Enjoy!

 

I’m sure you all have heard the line,”I want it now, Daddy!” from the famous Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory’s colorful character, Veruca Salt…

Often times when reaching for a goal be it personal, spiritual or work related we all get a little impatient when waiting for results.  This impatience can inform us as to where we are in relation to our goal or it simply could be Veruca rearing her ugly head…

If we have faith that it, the goal will arrive and you are doing all the steps necessary, (playing full-out as in last weeks post) then place an order with the waiter and trust that it’ll show up.  You know how when you’re at a restaurant and you place an order with the waiter, you trust that it’ll be on your table within a certain amount of time.  Going after your goal is a bit like that.  Doing the work then trusting in the out coming. I mean hey, we all can get impatient about when the out come arrives… But that is usually due to not truly trusting that it will arrive so by having it arrive now! you know you’re not walking down the wrong alley. And it could be that you simply want the fruits of your labor now… No matter what it all boils down to trust.

I have written before that life, a relationship and/or a goal have no finish line if it’s in alignment with who you are. And if a job or goal doesn’t transpire it’s the beginning of something else so in reality there is no end.  Think more about that and wanting it  now! may abate a bit…

Or just start signing… It helped Veruca!

Energetically,

~Sarah

 

 
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