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Moving Out of NYC June 14, 2012

In my mind I am a native New Yorker.  I have lived in New York City for 25 years.  I pretty much went to college here and stayed because I love it.  There was a brief sojourn to London for a couple of years but back to NYC I came.  New York was still my home.  I have lived longer here than anywhere else in my life.  That said after what’s been a long and wonderful time where NYC has protected me, made me grow and challenged me I have made the decision to move.  Move?!! you say? Yes.  I am moving up to Connecticut where my my boyfriend and family live.  I want to be closer to him and take the next step on our journey together.

Ok.  Now what’s really going on.  I realize that I at this moment in time I must walk the talk of who I am.  I also want to be straight up about my feelings which are… scared, excited, terrified, exillerated and overwhelmed (hence the exhaustion that has set in).  All that goes into moving a rich life from one state to another is A Lot!  I have moved my life before but I haven’t closed everything (bank accounts, gym memberships, utilities) down and departed. Just finding a bank is rough enough alone because of the timing of electronic bills.  I’m sad that I am leaving my beautiful garden apartment behind.  The usual question I get is, “You’re sub-letting right?” No I am letting it go!  Yes go. Also, I have been spending a ton of time with my boyfriend but when I am living close by what could happen then? (ah oh there’s that fear again!)  When I look at the fear and anxiety that comes up I know that to shift out of it one must explore the feelings, fill in the lines so to speak so that we can shift out of it.  Though while there, it isn’t always that comfortable. Meditation and the breath have been my closest companions.  And boy have I been talking it out… to myself.  If the neighbors could hear me they might be a  bit concerned.  I mean even keeping my mind straight versus it’s tangental thinking has been a chore in and of itself.  I am the list maker…. Oh by the way does anyone want a free piano?  They just need to be willing to move it out of a difficult space? No wait get back to the point!

But then I shift and think about the possibility in what I’m moving to, not away from.  Love!  What is better then that? The ultimate growth is in allowing yourself to be loved and to love in return. And if I can move away from the fear and closer to love then the lesson has been totally worth while.  I know that sounds like a cliche but as the Dalai Lama says, “My religion is kindness”  and the only thing better is love, as he would say.  Or as Don Miguel Ruiz would say.“You don’t need to justify your love, you don’t need to explain your love, you just need to practice your love. Practice creates the master.” There truly isn’t anything else in this world that is important other then love. So I sit with my uncomfortableness and fear so that I may move closer to the love that I know I have.  The greatest reminder is to be as gentle as I can with myself.

Speaking of gentle I must remember I will be close to the train so I can come back in tot the city whenever I want or need to. I’m not going far even though it may feel as such.  And importantly all of my friends I will know will remain part of  my life no matter where I live and I will be apart of theirs.  This is the next step in my growth.  We all have different phases in our lives where we can either allow the growth or stifle it.  I believe growth is a bit like molding clay and we are the clay.  We are being pushed and pulled and squished into something new but in the end we arrive at a piece of art.  I for one am all for the molding of the clay so that we become a beautiful new sculpture.

Where do you allow for the the discomfort to let yourself grow?  What kind of sculpture would you want to be? Me, I’d like to be the Venus de Milo… with arms that is.





Being Uncomfortable November 26, 2011

I understand that many people have differing view points on our thoughts and the power they hold. I myself have been a fan of the quote, “Thoughts become things… so think the good ones” (tut).  I Totally believe this belief.  That said that doesn’t mean that I ignore the  uncomfortable feelings when they come up and they most certainly will with most people.  It’s only natural!  They’re there for a reason: to educate, to illicit questioning and to open our eyes.  I believe that if we acknowledge what’s going on and process it, we can then move past it.  Ultimately make a choice.  Do I want to be upset, angry or whatever the feeling/feelings may be?  Do I want to hold on to this catabolic emotion so that it can have power over me? OR am I chosing the healthier more anabolic feelings?  What quality of life do I chose?   I know for one that it’s very important to understand where our feeling originate.  Being uncomfortable is there so that it can teach you something. And as we know every opportunity is an opportunity to learn.

What do you choose?


Love and Pink Light




Being Uncomfortable… November 2, 2011

Sometimes when we love someone intimately we become uncomfortable… Love isn’t always an easy thing to do.  It pushes buttons if we are meant to grow.  I use the taffy example on a regular basis: We are like taffy which must be pulled and stretched in order to become the yummy, multi-faceted result.  Love can do that to us.  If we allow ourselves to be unconditionally loving we learn to trust ourselves and love ourselves first.  We then are able to love others in kind.  When those pesky buttons get pushed we are given the opportunity to look at what they are truly about and then determine what healthy choice to make going forward.  We are not at the effect of our life but we then become the cause of it.  Make conscious healthy choices to help both you and your partner.  No one wants to be a victim of circumstance so acknowledge where your fears are coming from and proceed lovingly and gently.

You’re also given the opportunity to talk to your partner about your feelings. What may be coming up for you and why.  We know that people can’t make us feel anything that we don’t allow.  So proceed gently and above all unconditionally loving towards yourself and your partner.  Once we truly allow another in we are able to grow even more!! How wonderful is that!!

Love and Pink Light



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